Tuesday, September 04, 2012

Going Viral

A lot has happened. Not much has happened. The cold winter, the too large a move, a cold, all conspired to lay me out lower than even I could have ever imagined. By the time we were in the new place, I could not, no matter how much my life depended on it, climb a flight of stairs.

Then came the flu and fever for two weeks, rough Photo above taken during that after I'd just taken scissors to all my hair. Then came the severe allergic reaction to the antibiotics I was hoping would help resolve the flu. Photo below taken of the all over painful hives, the swollen joints all over, and my lips still swollen even after a couple hours after being treated with an antihistamine injection.
Then I was told I'd formed pneumonia in my lungs and that I would have to have more antibiotics. My legs became very weird feeling I could barely walk so I asked to be admitted to a hospital so they could supervise the new drugs and be there if things got worse. It was very stressful not knowing if I should get to the ER 40 minutes away at any hour of the day or night, not knowing if the next reaction would be more serious.

I checked in, Paul was away, a friend, Mandy, kindly came and stayed with me there and at home over 4 nights. An unbelievable comfort. The new medicine they tried to give me through an IV was stopped at once when my arm started mapping out in red as it entered my veins. More waiting. Then another drug tried by mouth was tolerable but I was on pins and needles stressing over what could happen next. Finally one doctor said that the stress was worse than the pneumonia at that point. And that if I stayed overnight and if the lungs were heading in the right direction in the morning I could go home and overcome the pneumonia without taking anything further. Yes, it would take perhaps a month, but it could be done. I jumped at that idea with both feet.

And here I've been since. Watching many many dvd's on the couch, living on soup, salad, and avocados, doing my best to keep hydrated a constant focus. Raw coconut water each morning is probably why I'm still here.

The shortness of breath is improved. My energy is improved. My leg weirdness and later extreme pain there has improved. I am working hard at NOT WORKING SO HARD.

I should not push anymore. I need to learn to not make everything else, like moving my house, more important than my body. It wasn't ever an issue I'd noticed before. Yeah, I'd get exhausted, beyond comprehension tired before. But I'd be fit by the morning. Not now. Not yet.

I don't want to test that line any more. I want to work with my health so that it always comes FIRST from now on. This is serious.

No one is more surprised than me that I am as passionate and into making Halfland as I ever have been. I hunger to have these hands make the things that are next to build. A dear friend suggested I first make a trailer, hinting at little scenes to get my feet wet with the filming. I think that is a brilliant idea. Perfect.

The set, my desk/office, the craft table, and the workshop supplies and work station are all now shoehorned into a standard bedroom in a nice apartment. Like a Chinese puzzle, I have to move boxes to get to other boxes still. However, I am taking deep breaths and making it ok to go slowly and mindful foremost of my energy levels. If tired, I do practically nothing.

I'm not kicking up my heels exactly yet, but so far things are going better than they were. For sure.

Gently floating my way back.

10 comments:

  1. Shelley, I'm so glad you're back!

    I can imagine what you've been through and I send you love and strength!

    The thing is, we're a huge organism, but we tend to believe that not all parts are equal… We have to take care of each of the parts. But it's a learning experience, too.

    Besides from my tree hugging hippie approach, I'm so glad that you find your way back into a somewhat "normal" situation. Like, "Hey, I'm able to the things I love to do again!"

    Hugs!

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  2. Thanks so much, Jessica. I think your thinking is very correct.

    I am learning, we all are, all life long.

    I didn't mention the lump in my breast and the painful periods that happened in this same time frame as well. It's been difficult over all.

    Coming back slowly. Grateful for you.

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  3. oh my, sounds like a rough lesson. but an important one to learn, i suppose. i have gone through a similar overwhelm or few and it never ceases to amaze me how easy it is to forget to be gentle with your own self.

    well wishes from across the pond! thyme and sage are especially good for respiratory problems, and honey heals everything of course! ;^)

    oh, and keep your lower back warm, that's very important in times of change.

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  4. Thank you very much indeed, Sylvï

    I will do as you suggest. I had no idea.

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  5. Frightening and terrible! I so hope you remain on the mend, getting better better better. I'll have to keep an eye on twitter and remind you to go to bed if I see you up late late. Hugs!

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  6. Thank you, dear Sven. Having you and Gretchin on the other side of the Twitter patch makes me feel like friends are always near.

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  7. Good to hear from you Shelly. I thought you were probably busy with your move. Sorry to hear you have had such a rough couple of months but glad to hear you are on the mend and haven't lost your passion for Halfland!

    If I were in your area I would bring you a nice big hot bowl of chicken soup, unless you're a vegetarian of course.

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  8. So sweet of you, Josje! Homemade soup from a friend is the best possible medicine of all!! So good.

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  9. I'm so sorry you've been feeling ill, Shelley! Hope you get back to 100% soon. I miss your Halfland updates.

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  10. Thank you so much, Tea Rose... me too! Man, I think I'll be well enough to start up again very soon.

    The handiman I was hoping to hire to help me get the art room up and running isn't at his phone anymore.

    now what?!

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