Freud by Warhol
Good and true friend and Professional Master Steel Armature Builder (!) Sven Bonnichsen at Scarlet Star Studios wrote to me a couple posts ago in the comments (which, if you've ever been written to in your comment section, then you know how it can tickle!) asking some very excellent, supportive questions to get things moving again on the Halfland project. And then when I didn't answer them promptly he wrote again asking what he could/should do to help get me what I want. I thought my situation might be universal enough, in what must be more than just my private difficulty, to bring it out of the comments and talk about it here.
SVEN SAYS (after a dearth of action on Halfland for more than a week.):
So, I could see myself asking one of two questions at this point:
What's the next step in making 1/2L that you feel excited about? or
What's the thing that's getting in your way right now? (That you either don't know how to do... Or fear/dread doing... Or the outside obligation/habit that's stealing your time?)
SVEN SAYS; DAY TWO (after I didn't initially reply to the above):
Hey Shellsy --
Are we done with the "*nudge*" portion of this online relationship? ...Nudging is not something I naturally do -- I tend to feel like the best way to support artists is not with ass-kicking, but with dreaming and wishing together. But you seemed to want to "be held accountable" for a while there... What would you like a friend to do?
I wrote to him personally to clarify that I indeed do welcome his nudges, niggles, and any otherwise coaxing cajoles, elbows of encouragement, prods and pushes, as I'm seriously interested in getting further along. Does that seem a direct contradiction to yesterdays' claim to simply being content to enjoy the whole affair? I don't. I see them as both true in the same moment. I want to make real progress but I don't want to be uptight about it as I do.
So, here are my attempts at answers to Sven:
What's the next step in making 1/2L that you feel excited about or what's the thing that's getting in your way right now? (That you either don't know how to do... Or fear/dread doing... ?
The next thing I feel EXCITED about is dressing the cottage set in fabrics and props with delicious detail, but that seems a bajillion steps away from now. I'm also excited to animate the Birds in Hats puppets on a branch, but in between that and now again is a myriad of unknown steps. I'd like to finish the bleeping windows but realize it would be wise of me to size the openings exactly when the cottage walls are more finalized. I'd like to fatten up my tree with more foam, papier mache and a coating of Flexall compound. I'd like to get the roof beams cut and installed but I am tired of trying to coordinate getting assistance from my friend, Downstairs Clare, as he's got other more important things going on right now so I'd like to not rely on anyone else and modify the roof design so that I can cut them myself. I'd like to buy some pink insulation foam panels and begin blocking out the landscape around the cottage. I'd like to figure out how to configure the cottage walls so that they lock firmly together as a whole but can be easily disassembled for shooting. I'd like to figure out how to use tiedowns on my set as I can't imagine how I'm going to reach up and under in spots. I've left a gap between the two tables the set rests on but will I be able to crawl under there and and squeeze my hands under the 2x4's the set flats rest on 24 times a second? Will I be going under/tiedown, up/animate, under/tiedown, up/animate, under/tiedown, up/animate, under/tiedown, up/animate, etc.? And what about the camera? What kind? What editing software? What background? What lighting to buy (whatever Mike Brent's tutorial says is the answer to that) but I still need to acquire them and work out their rigging here.
Or the outside obligation/habit that's stealing your time?
I recently completed a huge work project, my first overseas printing of an innovative book design and a very inventive mailing device for that book, of which I'm very proud. I've got two more similarly exciting projects lined up from the same client and have a week and a half left to develop and produce comps of both before my next presentation/meeting. I also have to design a less complex item and get it printed ASAP. For my physical health and tremendous value and pleasure, I take my three ballet classes each week, Wednesday, Friday, and Sunday, which take more time than just the class hours as while I'm out I usually take advantage and run errands the weekdays and go to cafe with Himself after class on Sunday. (I know, rough life!) So that leaves the other days to keep house and take care of intermittent projects for pay. And then there are the seemingly ever present exceptions, like making special birthday cards for special people, cooking for ailing friends, or this or that holiday/occasion popping up to make something for. (Since I started this plog I have cut out nearly every other craft projects I used to spend time on. It was a great creative outlet for me but I had to choose a priority and 1/2L. won.) Oh, and the BIGGIE, the Internet!!!! I have noticed that I can sit surfing for HOURS online without the slightest idea that so much time has passed. On Monday I kept the computer off all day and night for the first time in at least two years and that undoubtedly was why I made so much progress on the Christmas Card Project. And then there is also an ongoing health matter that semi-regularly stops my momentum with all of this--cold.
What would you like a friend to do?
I want to "be held accountable." If Sven, or anyone else here, has anything to suggest I am open and very interested in hearing it. If you've found a way around this sort of thing yourself or handle/approach your tasks a certain way that works for you, I'd love to know about it! If you want to call me names or otherwise set me straight, that's great too because I believe in the wisdom of crowds, well, a select, intelligent crowd, in this case. Or maybe, we can just encourage each other through our endeavors even more. I'm willing.
"I'm afraid our time is up." --Sigmund Freud